An Open Letter To My First Serious Boyfriend..

All of the things I've learned from you. To my first serious boyfriend, ​Never have I felt this way before. They say you come across people in your life that are either blessings or lessons. Honestly, I think you are a blessing. There is something about the way you treat me that is incomparable to anything. The feelings you give me are indescribable. But yet we do not focus on the future and whether we are meant to be. In previous "relationships", not having a clear image of our future would have eaten me alive. But with you, it's different. Everything is different. See you inspire me to be a better person every day. You have taught me the value of things that I once took for granted. The conversations that we have had these past few months still stick with me. Never have I felt alone with you or unappreciated. You love me unconditionally and I think that other people don't see that since we haven't really dated for a long time. I remember walking into Metcalf Hall and seeing you for the first time. Tall, blue eyes, brown hair, and pretty good looking. I always believed in love at first sight, but my love for you developed over time and here's how. Many don't know how we met or how we went from being friends to boyfriend and girlfriend (wow that sounded so middle-school"ish"). It started with Cards Against Humanity. Then a broken printer and a friend (you) who let my roommate and I use your ink and paper, and then me inviting you to lunch with us. Gosh, I remember sitting in Fountain Dining Hall talking to Amber about you and how we were just friends. Well I was wrong. You took me out. You took me out to the mall and bought me my first slice of cheesecake (red-velvet at that) and let me shop my life away. Then you surprised me with a Panther's shirt that I posted on Facebook that I wanted. The rest is history. From late night talks, to letting me cry when I couldn't cope with my great-grandmother's death, to bringing me chicken tendies and so much ketchup. You listen to me go on and on about random things, you never complain when I am always snapchatting videos and pictures of us, you encouraged me to try-out for the cheer team and you were there with me when I found out that I made it. You rushed to talk to me minutes before your championship game because you knew I was upset. Sitting out on Witherspoon's balcony, crying because I felt like I didn't belong, but you came, and you comforted me, and wiped my tears away and insisted on taking me out to dinner after your game. You know me so well. And that matters. It matters for the reason that I find so much comfort, love, kindness, and trust when I am with you and even when we aren't with each other. I think that it is truly remarkable that you have figured out things about me that I never even realized. Okay, last sappy love story and I will wrap this up. My ring. I wear it proudly on my left ring finger because of the love you have given and shown me. The night you gave it to me, I was upset and letting my social anxiety get the best of me when we went out. Of course you wanted to stay and hang out with your friends, but you rushed to get me home because you knew I wasn't happy or having a good time. Yes I wanted to go, but I did not want to ruin your night and I felt so bad about making us leave. We got up to your room and you tried talking to me about how it was okay and everything, but still I was in my feelings. I remember you kneeling down and reaching for something in your bottom drawer. And you pulled a box out. You got on one knee and started pouring your heart out to me. I stood there at a loss for words and then you showed me the ring that I had been talking about a few weeks earlier. The ring is beautiful, just like your character. I look at this ring and I think back to everything that we have experienced over the past few months. I love you and I am lucky that God blessed me with such a caring and God fearing man. You love so hard and you make every day a special day for me. You put me first and you have taught me that I am perfect the way I am and I don't need makeup, or long hair, or fake nails, and everything else society focuses on to feel "beautiful". You have shown me how doing the little things in a relationship can go a long way. I'd never thought that I would have met a person that could play so many roles in my life: a best friend, a listener, a supporter, and a lover. You know we don't say that we are going to be together forever because we honestly don't know. We are still growing and learning how to adult and take on what this world throws at us. We are going to make mistakes and second guess things. But I do know, that right now, I am happy. I am so happy and happier than I have ever been. Sure, we have only known each other for one semester, but I have enjoyed every second, of every minute, of every hour that I have gotten to experience complete joy and indescribable feelings with you. - XO. 10 out of 10, Would Recommend.